i love life...APRILFOOLS.

Anonymous asked: are you going to the beatles: the lost concert" movie when it comes out next month?

i wasn’t aware of that movie. perhaps i shall. 

to all the people who cared and looked out for me when i was younger. all those things i thought were innocent weren’t really as innocent as they seemed at the time.  those things could’ve gotten me expelled, killed, raped/pregnant/AIDS/HIV, sold, beaten, arrested. 20 years young and have realized that they just cared for me. i know i can’t expect anything less from my siblings, the youth around me, and even my own future children… i just hope that the things they choose to do doesn’t turn out like how it could’ve for me. i got lucky i guess. but that shit doesn’t happen to everyone. too many young girls and boys have at least one of those things happen to them. i just wish i could’ve been that example of the one teenager in their life that they looked up to who actually listened to the ones who were looking out. if there is one piece of advice i could’ve told myself back then, it’d be to listen to your parents. they have always looked out for me, despite what i lead you all to believe. they wanted the best for me… still do. but they have no control over what happens now. although i’m their child, and i live in their household, they know i am an adult. at least when i was still a minor they forced the consequences on me, now it doesn’t mean much. don’t take those people in your lives that are looking out for granted. one day they might not be there. 

how even the people that i’ve only known for a week can feel like they can talk to me. what do i give off that shows that i’d care. *just to be clear this is in no way negative* i’m just in awe. i never understood the idea of how one interaction can change the way people act and feel towards and about you. how one smile or a simple conversation could make someone’s day. to be honest, i’m a very standoffish person… and sometimes i can be really cold hearted. and despite all of my blank stares, emotionless faces, and monotone voice, people still feel like they can open up to me. i mean i’ve only been in my workplace for about a month and this woman feels so comfortable with me that she can cry, literally cry, to me about the issues she’s having with her daughter. it all started with asking me if i spoke spanish, and a month later she’s looking to me for an ear to vent. if this can all happen to a random, yet not so random, person… i really need to reconsider the things i do and say to the people who are more than that. we always hope that they’ll always be there. we’re just so accustomed to the thought that we will always have them, and truth be told; people walk in and out of your life more than you think. think about all the people who have came and left as they pleased… fuck them. think about all the people who had no choice to leave… realize it was their time. personally, those things are important to think about, but what i think is even more important, is to think about those who you allowed to leave. the ones you didn’t fight for. the ones you let slip away. they’re the people who would’ve stayed true in being with you forever…but you pushed them away. if you don’t know why they left, think about it. you’ll be mind blown.